Frost-Bites

Best. Toy. EVER.

2006-06-23T16:15:00.000+08:00

A couple of weeks back me, the wife and some friends went to a toy convention. At the actual event, i didn't see anything interesting enough to put here, but lo and behold! an officemate forwarded pics from the convention and i saw the coolest, meanest, toy i have ever fucking seen.

Satan probably has a complete set.

Web Comics

2006-06-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

I've been reading a lot of web comics lately and decided to share them here. Web Comics are an employee's best friend, specially when trying to look busy while wasting time at work. The first web comic i ever followed religiously was Dilbert created by Scott Adams. This strip helped me maximize my productivity while at work. Really..

Anyway, here's my Top 3 favorite Web Comic:

1. PVP Online - A strip that features the day to day lives of people working in a gaming magazine. OH, and the strip has two things that most Web Comic don't which is why this is one of the best out there, A lovable Troll and CONTINUITY.

2. Penny Arcade A Web Comic that has gathered a huge following consisting mostly of gamers and most probably geeks (there's a difference?) Their strip is usually about the latest news/trend in the gaming industry.

3. Dueling Analogs - This is my favorite right now, the strips are hilarious! you'll need to have at least heard of all the mainstream games to get this though as the strips are mostly inside jokes or parodies of them. If you've ever been addicted to console gaming, this strip is for you.

Wonderwoman Movie?

2006-06-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

I just read about an article about plans to create a movie based on the DC Character Wonder Woman. I wonder if they'd be able to pull this one off. read the article here

I remember watching the series in the 80's with Linda Carter.

Wasn't too shabby for it's time, i'll be looking forward to seeing this movie, i just hope they don't cast Jessica Alba in this role.

Other rumored movies from DC include a sequel to Batman Begins, Flash and Aquaman. I'm excited about seeing a movie about the Watchmen though, if they can make a movie even half a good as what they did with Sin City, I'll be a happy man indeed.

Here's to hoping they don't fuck any of these up.

The Punisher: The Tyger

2006-06-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine sent a review of the new Punisher story arc by Garth Ennis and although he gave this particular issue a good review,it really ticked me off.

To the person who wrote the review.

FUCK YOU.

Actually, we, the people who think Ennis is a God and that the Punisher is like Jesus, never had to wait for an issue like this to understand why Castle became a fucking psychopath, it is common knowledge that having to see your wife and kid blown to bits is more than enough reason to go on a killing spree. And the trauma from that experience would be more than enough to fuck you up so bad that killing the people who bombed your family wouldn't be enough. You'd have to kill every single motherfucker who is, in the mind of a madman, "Bad".

Oh, and nobody ever considered him a hero. Even Castle himself.

Thanks for giving a good review though.

Actual review of the asshole to follow.

Life's Simple Pleasures

2006-06-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Tagged again! I really hate being tagged, but since it's my wife who was the tag-ger, i have to do this.

Instructions: Name ten of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. A long fart.
2. Somebody smelling the fart.
3. That somebody complaining / passing out from the part. Bonus points if that person actually dies.
4. Free stuff.
5. A good story.
6. Laughing at other people's misfortunes.
7. Quality time with the wife and kid.
8. Dinner with my sister.
9. Hearing good news about close relatives.
10. Hearing about the death of people you hate.

There you go. My current top ten simple pleasures. i won't tag anybody else since i really don't know anybody who'd appreciate this.. actually..i don't know many people.

X-Men 3: Last Stand

2006-06-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

I’ve finally seen the new X-men Movie.. whoopdedoo. Was it any good? Was it everything I expected?

No.

Don’t get me wrong, it was a good movie, sure, but it really didn’t feel like a real X-men story. Sort of like how you feel when you read an issue of “What If...” It’s interesting, but you can’t wait to read the next issue of the normal story arc.

“But neither are the two previous X Movies” you say?

Yeah, but at least the first movie had twists to character origins as a plus. It made the movie interesting… like an issue of “what if” it gave some semblance of a background so as not to confuse you with the normal story. It sort of gave the impression that it at least “told” you what sort of trip you were going to take. The changes to the characters were made to satisfy the “non-imaginative” people.

These are the non-comic readers by the way.

The second movie had a lot of cameos. Collosus, Warpath, Jubilee, Shadowcat, a guy who could’ve been Quicksilver, Cannonball… These cameos made the movie interesting.

I’m not saying I liked the first two to death, I’m saying I liked them better than the third.

I didn’t like them, but I didn’t hate them either. They were ok.

Which is why I sort of hated the third movie. I was kind of hoping they’d learn from the mistakes of the first two and get it right this time. I was hoping for a little more character development and not just one liners from each character. Or if they WERE one liners at least have them “talk” like they normally do. Take Beast for example, Beast should have wit, in the movie, he never has a good, witty, “I’m smarter than you, so you probably wouldn’t be able to get this” comeback to any of the shit Wolverine throws his way!

I was also looking for more attention to details, if not with the story, at least with the characteristics of each character. Let’s look at Juggernaut for example. Juggernaut’s unlimited power is only hindered by his vulnerability to psionic attacks, which is why he keeps wearing his massive helmet. He doesn’t wear that to protect his head! The Gem of Cyttorak does that for him. But in the movie you see him ALWAYS walking around sans helmet. Magneto’s not much smarter though as he keeps walking around without his helmet as well. I can understand why they didn’t use CG to make Juggy bigger and all but why, OH WHY did they have to show how hairy he was? AND CALLISTO DOES NOT HAVE SUPER SPEED AND CEREBRO LIKE POWERS!

I now go to my main complaint about the movie…

Cyclops.

Cyclops is the first X-man. He was Xaviers poster boy, he was what Xavier had in mind when he built the school. Scott’s only flaw in my opinion was his relationship with Jean Grey. It was cool that he’s shagging the next fave student of Xavier, but it’s waaaay too annoying to see him pine over her like a goddamn schoolboy.

Anyway, in the movie, just when we were finally treated to the tormented, angsty, dark Cyclops, he’s killed off worse than a nameless crew from Star Trek! Yeah, sure, he’s killed by the woman he loves more than life itself, but COME ON! At least dedicate some time to actually make us CARE that he’s being killed off! At least let us feel the loss of Xavier’s number one boy! If the Transformers was able to pull it off why can’t they?

But let me now go to the stuff I liked about the movie, the fight scenes and Wolverine’s rampage through the forest. That was cool! Violence at last. Beast going crazy and opening up a can o’ whoop ass on Magneto’s goons was great as well. Iceman’s fight with pyro was a bit lame but seeing “Bobby” turn into “Iceman” sent shivers down my fat, geeky spine. Seeing Juggernaut smash through walls was a treat and seeing Shadowcat in action was worth the ticket price.

But the best thing about this movie? PIPSQUEAK SPECIAL! Yeah! The special move Wolvie and Colossus use on big ass enemies.

Oh, and there was a sentinel in the movie… or at least a silhouette and its head.

I'm Looking forward to the next installment though, as they clearly set the tone for the next X-Movie. Although there are two obvious possible stories based on the ending scenes (Onslaught &/or Age of Apocalypse) , i hope they just pick one and get it right this time.

Am I Evil, Yes I Am

2006-02-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

WOW! got to work on being perfect though. Can't wait to see Nocturnal Sun's results though, i'll bet my left nut he'll get 100%

You Are 94% Evil

You're the most evil person you know.

The devil is even a little scared of you!

How Evil Are You?

Smarter than the average bear

2006-02-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

i think i should go back to 6th grade and kick some ass.

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 6/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

Beer...hmmmmm

2006-02-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

Why am I not surprised?

You're An Angry Drunk

Ever wake up with sore knuckles and a black eye? Thought so.

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

Johari

2006-02-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

this is nice, please take the time to check this out:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Daemon_Frost

Thanks in advance!!!

Seven Deadly Sins

2006-02-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

Why am I not surprised?

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	High
Wrath:	Very High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very High
Pride:	High

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Dante's Inferno

2006-02-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

I really have to stop taking these tests :)

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Extreme
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Extreme
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

What Class Are You?

2006-02-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

wow, still here?

anyway, something cool that i wanted to share.

I Am A: Chaotic Good Human Ranger Fighter

Alignment:
Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.

Race:
Humans are the 'average' race. They have the shortest life spans, and because of this, they tend to avoid the racial prejudices that other races are known for. They are also very curious and tend to live 'for the moment'.

Primary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.

Secondary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.

Deity:
Shaundakul is the Chaotic Good god of travel and exploration. He is also known as the Rider of the Winds. His followers are typically rangers, and work to protect the land. They typically wear leather armor, and carry long swords and short bows. Shaundakul's symbol is a white hand with the index finger raised.

i have always played Ranger, so i guess i chose the right class.

Tagged!

2005-08-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

i got tagged by my wife (bitch, She knows i hate chain letter stuff) :D

. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there’s no one around you?

- Picking my nose
- Scratching my crotch
- Biting my nails
- Fart REALLY loud

these are actually traits commonly found in a stereotypical male, or a redneck male, so i guess I'm a stereotypical redneck male.

Hey! i got an idea! I wonder how many men actually fit in this mold....

2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?

- Spending quality time with Mrs. Frost and Sikei. Believe me, nothing works better.
- ahem....i prefer not to say, it's private :D
- Playing computer games! :)

Good Times

2005-08-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

We always take for granted the time we have with the people we love. Whenever we spend time with them, we always end up wasting what precious time we have on trivial things that are prerequisites to having an organized life.

Laundry, taking out the trash, basic housekeeping.

I spent a wonderful weekend with Mrs. Frost and i was reminded of how much I had been missing Her the past months.

I wish i had more time to spend with her...

and i wish i had more time to write what i want here :)

alas! work intrudes once again!

(i activated the comments feature on my Blog, Thanks for reminding me Trish!)

5,4,3,2,1..

2005-08-05T01:48:00.000+08:00

i think i caught the quiz bug from my wife...

Thug Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

The Warrior's Soul

2005-08-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

This is something my wife sent me, it's a quiz that tells you what kind of weapon you are.
this is my result (pretty accurate description if you ask me :)

Your personality is best represented by the
Japanese dagger, called a Tanto. A person who
wields a Tanto knows better than anyone that
you cant judge on appearance alone. You have
the unique ability to see the full potential in
people and objects long before anyone else has
a clue. You are clever and are probably
underestimated a lot by others, but YOU know
who you are and exactly what you are capable
of.

What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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Misplaced Priorities

2004-11-02T11:38:00.000+08:00

A prime example of twisted Filipino pride. this is an article sent to me by a friend, i wasn't really surprised with the content because this isn't the first time something like this has happened in the Philippines.

Apathy.

Another word we can associate with "pinoys". I'm betting Jose Rizal and Andres Bonifacio are getting a lot of shit in Valhalla because of us.

Read on, see a child martyred in her quest to find glory for a country that doesn't know she exist.

(apologies to the author of this article, If you read this, just tell me and i'll put your name at the end of the article to credit your work.)

"He who can take no interest in what is small will take false
interest in what is great." John Ruskin

Jasmine Trias visited the Philippines very recently. Everyone was agog
waiting to welcome her. The excitement was remarkable as the media
and many of our "kababayans" flocked to the airport to see her. This
scenario is typical of Filipinos. Sadly, it reflects our country's
misplaced priorities.

Contest of the Mind. Another young girl came back to the country just
a couple of weeks ago. Her name is Faye (not her real name for very
sensitive reasons). Unknown to her countrymen, this eleven year old
girl brought honor to the Philippines. She represented the country in
the Intercontinental Science Quiz Net in Australia. Out of 57
countries represented, Faye garnered First Place for the
Philippines. Germany came in second while the United States came in
third.

In start contrast to the hooplah extended to Jasmine Trias, Faye's
arrival did not make any noise. Not a peep. In an earlier
competition, "Mathematics for the Young Asians" in Indonesia, Faye
also came out in the Top Five. But just like the Australian event,
this feat did not receive any recognition in our country at all. Our
interests seem to be set on other "priorities".

We are more interested in promoting celebrity guests instead of
educational and intellectual pursuits. Indirectly and quite obviously
we are teaching our children that development of the external image
takes priority over educational achievement.

Faye's story is inspiring. She comes from a broken family. Her father
falsely claimed that he was unmarried when he married her mom. When
her mom found out, she decided to raise up her daughter alone.
Despite the difficulty, Faye in no way used it as an excuse for
complacency in her studies. In grade school, she was a consistent
honor student. She took every academic requirement as a challenge.
And she delivered. At one time, she submitted a project thesis in
Australia that won "The Best Physics and Science Award". The award
qualified the Philippines to be one of the top 10 countries that
would compete in Australia, among the 57 countries that joined.

Considering her family's financial constraints, she and her mom asked
help from our government for their trip to Australia to claim
the "Best
Physics" award and to join the Science competition. They saw this
challenge as a rare opportunity offered to Faye and her country,
considering that only two Asian countries qualified - Japan and the
Philippines. Unfortunately, our government had other priorities.

Mother and daughter then tried to ask help from individual senators
and congressmen. All turned them down except for one who was willing
to help, on condition that Faye should give public credit to the
senator for supporting her even in the earlier competitions she
joined. Out of integrity, the mother could not accede to this
arrangement. Thus no outside help was found.

Faced with this situation, Faye and her mom took out all their
savings and went out of their way to secure by themselves the
additional finances needed. The only driving force behind them was
their desire to give honor to God and to the Philippines. With the
little resources they had, they went to Australia on September 17,
2004 for the competition. They claimed the trophy and cash award for
the "Best Physics" thesis, Faye submitted in Sidney and then flew to
Brisbane for the quiz competition.

No kababayan welcomed them in Australia except for a kind Filipina
they met in the plane who assisted them. As they were checking in at
a hotel, the "kind" Filipina who volunteered to help them disappeared
taking with her Faye's and her mother's bags, passports, and plane
tickets. At that point, they literally had nothing left except for
the few pieces of clothes and their faith in God. They had to sell
the extra clothes left to be able to buy food.

In need once again, they sought help from some of the Filipino
officials in Australia but to no avail. Oddly, the Filipino officials
there were too
busy with other priorities, not minding to help a young girl and a
mother who had no other desire but to bring honor to our country.
Given a budget for only a one night stay at the hotel, mother and
daughter had to check out the following day.

Leaving their luggage on deposit and without money for transportation
fare, they decided to walk two kilometers to the competition venue on
their native Filipino costumes. If walking a two kilometer distance
was bad enough, how much more would be walking the distance on their
native costume along the highways of Australia!

Upon arrival at the competition site, Faye and her mom were very
surprised when they discovered that the delegates from each of the
other
countries were well supported by a band, a cheering squad, and a
flag, while Faye only had her mother and the anxiety of lost
passports and plane tickets. Worse, representatives of each country
were required to decorate their booths. With only the three-piece
costume they had on, Faye and her mom were even more surprised when
the organizing committee awarded their booth as "The Most Creative"
booth.

In the early part of the competition, Japan, Brazil and Spain were
eliminated. As the only Asian country left to compete against six
Western nations, the Philippines was cheered on by Japan. Faye was
encouraged by her Japanese cheering squad, but in her heart, how she
wished that she had her own countrymen to cheer her on. When Faye
finally won first place and Philippines national anthem was being
played, she prayed silently thanking God for making her a Filipina.

Despite all the painful experiences she had with her country, her
priorities did not waver. A Japanes diplomat was the one who helped
Faye and her mom to secure temporary pass so they could return to the
Philippines. The money they won was just enough for their fare back
home and their temporary passport. When Faye was relating this story
before a crowd, she said, "Let us love our nation, for nobody else
will."

Faye did not allow her painful experiences to tear down her loyalty
to her country. She is not a celebrity but a servant out to serve her
fellow Filipino.

In the eye of the Tornado

2004-10-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

I know I should be working, I have a lot of things to do.

My allotted 8 hours for work isn’t enough to finish the load I have piled up in my cluttered brain.

But I can’t help it.

I sit here, looking at you, as busy as a bee,

flitting around the office, stopping here and there,

whispering encouragement to some people,

giving instructions and taking them from others.

I’m so proud of what you do.

Watching you work inspires me to do better.

I just wanted you to know that.

I love you.

God is busy, call later

2004-08-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Ok, I just want to say something about “Praying” for something. Christians have this basic belief that God has a special plan, right? When somebody dies or something goes wrong, we go “It’s God’s will”. If everything that happens is “God’s Will” or part of God’s great plan, then who are we to go fuck it up with our requests?

“God, please help the Philippine team win a gold medal at the Olympics, they need a miracle ‘cause they suck”.

Right.

So what happens if it’s in Gods great plan to have another team win because sometime in the future, somebody from that team will rise to greatness. Do you think God will revise his great plan just because you asked?

Think about it. Praying for something is so fucking arrogant.

So stop being an asshole and leave God alone, or do you think that you can give God tips on how to run the show?

I didn’t think so.

So stop praying and be thankful that having an asshole for a supervisor/manager isn’t part of God’s great plan.

Oh, wait..

Crap.

School Spirit

2004-08-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

i received this from a friend of mine via e-mail. I had such a good laugh at this that i HAD to post this here so that i can read this anytime i wanted to. Whoever wrote this deserves an award or something for having the balls to say what everybody wanted to say about those people who are so stuck up on which school they came from.

I hope whoever reads this enjoys it as much as I did.

On School Pride

Any of you catch the previous La Salle -Ateneo game? The one where La Salle blew a 15-point half time lead? The one that robbed many a Green's wallet and savings accounts of their contents? The one that most of you rubbed in my face the moment you saw me? Yeah, that one.

Well, it got me thinking of several things. Chief among which was how I can get away with bleeding Cardona's throat for choking YET AGAIN! But it also got me remembering about my college days. It seemed like eons ago and yet some feelings seem so fresh today even after 6 years.

I was a diehard Archer fan back then. Win or lose I'd be at the games, cheering and shouting for all I was worth. School Pride. You loved your campus and hated the others.

We all outgrow it eventually. Or do we? Let's test it shall we? Listed below are several schools and what I think of them. Try to see what you feel after reading what this jack-off had to say about your university.
Enjoy.

ATENEO

This school's trademark is arrogance. Nothing more, nothing less. I have, to this day, not met an Atenean who does not think that their school is THE best there is. Even La Sallites and um, uh, UP people (what do you call yourselves anyway?) are not this shamelessly boastful. This does not mean to say however, that they are all pricks and witches. Some of the best buds I have are Ateneans. All two of them. But come on! Seriously, the only thing Ateneo can claim to be the best in is creating a 2-hour gridlock over a road stretching 3 damned kilometers!!!

Oh, and Interdisciplinary Studies is NOT a course. It's Jesuit charity for the incurably dumb and lazy.

ADAMSON

Hmmm, let's see what I can say about Adamson. Well, there's the fact their school color is blue like Ateneo. Their team mascot is a bird like Ateneo. Aside from that, there's not a shred else. Damn this school is boring.

FEU and UE

Do any of you know what FEU stands for? Forever Useless! Yes, I'm an ass. But joking aside, the Far Eastern University and the University of the East are two schools whose names imply that at least one of them was founded by a group of people who had the creative, artistic, and imaginative prowess of a pile of rocks.

Seriously though, these are feel good schools. If you don't believe me try visiting either campus. The moment you see them, you start feeling good that you don't go there.

UP

Here's a school that, for better or worse, is totally bereft of any identity. Some people regard it as THE premier educational institution in the country. There are those who, for good reason, look at it simply as one big vicious playground. And others see it as a breeding ground for militant wannabe rebels who try to lobby for whatever cause they deem to be in the country's best interest. For those of you who can truly relate with the latter you have to be in your late 40's or 50's. Shit you're OLD!!! La lang.

I favor the first two views. It really IS the best educational institution there is. And I'm not just saying that because I'm surrounded all day by UP graduates who'd just as soon throw me off the 11th floor balcony given the slightest provocation as look at me. I really, really do believe...that they will kill me if I say anything bad against UP. Can you blame me? The only thing longer than the list of UP's distinguished alumni (Miriam Defensor included) is the list of all the in-campus violence. There's a psycho lurking deep inside each UP educated man/woman/child. This will be confirmed by the amount of hate mail I'll be receiving from them.

UST

Here's a school that will totally drag down one's social status just by being enrolled in it. I don't care how rich you are or how cultured you may be, if you're from UST it don't mean shit. That's not necessarily a bad thing. I know of several obnoxious AB kids who were brought down several pegs while studying there and are now some of the nicest, most unassuming people to walk this planet.

It's funny to note how much this place of learning mirrors the current social state of the country every time the UAAP season kicks in. Come the basketball tournament, they're all friends. You see them chanting, clapping, and giving each other high-fives. United by a common goal, the rich and the poor are united as one. After the event is passed, they all go back to hating each other.

DLSU

Di Lumusot Sa UPCAT. That's a classic ain't it? It's as hilarious now as it was when I first heard it in 1994, which is to say, it's about as funny as getting kicked in the crotch. It's sad to note for a proud alumnus such as myself that a school with as impressive an academic pedigree as La Salle has become nothing more than a money-hungry institution whose only requirements for acceptance nowadays seem to be a pulse, an IQ over 80, and the financial capacity/ability to pay.

Nowadays, whenever I incounter a person clayming to be from La Sall and they speech bad, have poor grammage, and cannot spill correctness, I am not surprice.

NU

I'm not even sure if this place is a real school. And I don't mean that in a snooty-you're-nothing-compared-to-my-school way. I mean I'm not even sure this place actually exists. I actually started believing that its initials really stood for Negative sa UPCAT.

Think about it. Do any of you really know anyone from NU? Do any of you even know of anyone who knows anybody from NU?

And if any of you even point to their basketball team and the audience that watches its games as proof of its existence, I beg you to think of this point. They act like absolute maniacs and they even look the part.
If we go by that, then the National University is not a school. It's a correctional facility.

CSB

This school has had a bad rep since the day of its inception. Admittedly, it started out as a place where DLSU can deposit its non-performing students so as not to give up the sizeable revenues from those hopeless bastards who have the money to shell out but not the ability to count it.

Everybody knows this already.

What people don't know is that CSB now boasts of fine world class courses designed to equip the Benildean with the tools necessary to succeed in the real world. These courses include Basic Arithmetic majoring in the Multiplication Table, Whining with a specialization on Tantrums, and the ever popular Strategic Investments: What to do with your Parents' Money.

CRC/UAP

Them Opus Dei folks can slap it with whatever initials they deem fit, it would still not change the fact that this school will forever be known not by its academic achievements but more by the fact that it is the only school with a car to student ratio nearing 1:1. (No my dear CSB students and alums, that is not read as one colon one.)

The meanest thing one can say about CRC is that it's a school filled with students rich enough to be Ateneans, but will never be smart enough to be such. The nicest thing one can say about CRC is that it's near a Starbucks open until 2 am.

Now I realize I might have offended some people out there. Let me tell you right now that I am whole-heartedly and humbly sorry. I am sorry that you have no sense of humor and nobody had the heart to whack your uptight head when you were growing up.

For those of you did appreciate this, I give seminars on insensitivity and creatively callous writing. Feel free to email me.

Peace and chill folks.

-psycho!!!

Now It's Time

2004-08-03T15:32:00.000+08:00

This is a poem my sister wrote about my mom to help her deal with her pain. I wish I could have written something like this.

It’s Time

Jesus came to me one day
and told me
“It’s time to take her away”
Before I can answer, “No, not yet!”
He said, “She’s tired she needs to rest”
I asked Him, “ Lord, why her, why me?”
“I’m not yet ready , can’t you see?”
He gave me an answer, he gave me a smile
“Don’t worry my child you’ll be apart only for awhile”
I didn’t listen, I thought it was unfair
The pain of her loss is too painful to bear.
I asked once more, “Jesus , can’t she stay?”
“Any price I would be willing to pay”
He looked at me and held my hand,
“Her time is up, you should understand”
“But how could I live without her by my side?”
“I will always be with you”, he calmly replied.
I rested my head on His shoulder
I told Him, “Jesus, please take care of her”
“Yes, my child, I’ll take her with me,
In heaven she’ll be peaceful, contented and happy”
“Thank you Jesus, now I can let her go,
But can you tell her how much I love her so?”
“That my child, I need not do,
Because even before, she already knew”

I made this poem to start my healing process. I will just leave it all up to Him because I only survive with the assurance that mommy is happy in God’s kingdom. Let us continue to pray for her.

-JEWEL-

Suffer the sins of the past

2004-08-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

I once said that i will never regret anything i have ever done in the past & I held on to those words with pride. I knew that whatever i went through in the past, whatever decision i made, i will always be 100% sure that i did those things with full confidence that i was doing the right thing. That i will look back and say "What i did then, no matter how bad it seems today, was the best decision for me at the time . It's one of the reasons i'm me."

For the first time in my life, i look back and i see that i did do something that i wouldn't be proud of today.

i'm sorry. only you know what it is. look closely. it's gone now.

like a deranged person trying to clean away the excesses of his guilt.
His shame.

I erased mine.

This is nothing.

But i cannot go on knowing that the one thing i regret doing still exists for all people to see,

I'm sorry.

for every ounce of pain this gave you, i give myself ten years of suffering.
for every tear that falls from your eyes because of this, i give myself ten years to make it up to you.

nothing can undo the pain i caused you.
but i will die trying.

forever, i will be by your side.
forever i will show you how nobody else can love me the way you do.
forever, i will show you how special you are. how nothing in this world will ever compare to you.
i will show you how much you mean to me. How much i love you.

Forever.

or i will die trying.

Missing you

2004-08-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

*I should have posted this a couple of weeks back but i didn't have time then *

July 28, 2004
I just finished eating lunch (which sucked ) and I still couldn’t stop thinking about you.

I arrived in the office at around 9:20 and went about my usual morning routine.

Turn pc on, get water, chit-chat with tine, follow up on tasks assigned by PM’s and whoever. I chatted with joe a bit about the movie project handled by dan. The usual bullshit that keeps me alive by giving the impression that I’m working and that I know what I’m doing.

While I was talking with joe, dan and tine (which began to get pretty boring after the third sentence spoken) I received a message on my phone, it was you. That literally made my morning, and I excused myself from the conversation and made my way to the nearest phone….which was beside chino. I was actually considering not calling you because I REALLY didn’t want to sit beside chino as I saw him picking his nose a while back. So I gathered enough courage, approached the phone, shot chino a “touch me and I’ll kill you” look and started to dial your number.

I wanted to hide my face when you picked up the phone because I really must’ve looked like a complete idiot smiling like there was something sucking on my….. and so we talked and time stopped for me. Has anybody ever told you that you have the most sexiest phone voice when you’ve just woken up?

And so I went back to work…

My meeting with regie Pablo started at around 11:30, alex (who was included in the meeting) and I really wanted to eat, so we cut the meeting short and almost threw regie out the door when the meeting ended.

(oh you called again during the meeting, but when I called back, the line was busy)

So we had lunch, as mentioned above, and had an uneventful cigarette break, and so here I am.

More later.

Have iItold you that I can’t work since my mind has been screaming your name and demanding that I either look for a way to be with you right now or it shuts down indefinitely?

*sigh*

I love you.

Kings of Chaos

2004-07-16T16:27:00.000+08:00

http://www.kingsofchaos.com/recruit.php?uniqid=4zcaeq8v

Wrath

2004-06-07T08:32:00.000+08:00

This is a story I wrote when was in college several years ago. This was supposed to be a graphic novel that would bring me and my friends fame and fortune :P I know it sucks... a lot, but I'm still proud of it. I've always wanted to re-write it and finish it once and for all.

I think maybe I'll try and work on it over the weekend.

And maybe pigs will learn to fly as well ;)

*click on the title to view the file*

Return to Darkness

2004-06-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

Why do we always expect to be understood?
Why do we go about trying to be nice to people.
All I ever got was a shot to the heart each and every time.
Hello hate, it’s been a while.
I’ve missed your reassuring presence within me.
I will never love.
Never again will I suffer the fool for people who wouldn’t have the mental and emotional capacity to fully understand and appreciate the real me.
I will leave them to their sorrow.
To their misguided past, to their own sorrows and their own
To their unending quest to find love.
I will turn my back on them
I will walk away…

Hikari

2004-05-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

And rise I shall
from the ashes of my despair.

i will burn away the excesses of my sorrow.
for the light of your love
offers me its solace,
its comfort and its care

And never again
will the darkness of my pain cover me
as it has all my life

Forever and unto eternity shall i live
under the light of your love

And never again
will the darkness of my past cover me
as it has all my life